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A typical day.

• Wake up earlyish, around 8am.
• Put off getting out of bed for a while. Fall in and out of sleep and/or read internet on phone.
• Eventually get out of bed.
• Have a slice of toast for breakfast. Drink lots of water.
• Eventually leave for the office.
• Alternate between doing work and spacing out. Drink lots of water.
• Sometimes eat lunch. Other times get a yoghurt or something.
• Eventually get bored and leave for home.
• Do something for dinner. Slice of toast or soup. Drink lots of water.
• Try to read or watch TV. Usually end up with a music channel on while compulsively refreshing google reader or reddit or facebook or twitter or some/all of the above.
• Start feeling really tired around 9. Go to bed around 10.30 or 11. Stay awake for a while doing nothing. Drink lots of water. Eventually sleep but keep waking up.
• Repeat.

This is with drugs that are supposed to stop me feeling shit and useless. Instead all I feel is tired, restless, demotivated, distracted, twitchy, thirsty, and irritable. I crave food but I'm not hungry and little things like getting out of bed or leaving the house are a fuckton of effort. I could really do with the meds kicking in properly really soon, preferably before I leave the country on business in a couple of weeks would be useful.

Occasionally I get bursts of motivation where I can focus. Sometimes it lasts for a few hours but mostly for less than 1 hour.

I really don't have all that much control over what I give my full attention to, my brain just latches onto something and runs with it, whether that's reading reddit for hours or churning out some code. It's kind of like being in a trance.

On a more positive note, my lack of interest in food has caused me to lose some weight. Over the course of about a month I've dropped close to 5kg. I think my appetite's slowly coming back. It's hard to tell though.

meh.

I opened up my sky+ box to try and get recorded stuff off it. It turns out that anything not free-to-air can't be extracted from the disk, leaving me with a few movies from film4 and some stuff from bbc1.

I did finally put a hard disk in my popcorn hour. I'm still waiting on a wireless card to turn up for it but for now I've repurposed a spare airport express in order to give it some network access and the box is happily torrenting down the tv I missed over the past couple of weeks.

Plans for today mainly consist of: sitting, watching tv, emptying and refilling the dishwasher, buying more yoghurt. Maybe some coding if I can keep my concentration levels up, otherwise mindlessly surfing the internets for hours.
It's an action-packed Saturday.

In an effort to feel less stupid I've been watching some of the Stanford Engineering Everywhere videos. They're really well done and I'm hoping by the end of it I'll actually understand a lot of the basic bits of software engineering and computer science that I never picked up. I'm a pretty awful coder and while I'm pretty good at monkeying patches for existing code, I'm terrible at sitting down and writing something from scratch. I'm also bloody terrible at learning from books. There's no real work or anything required of me so I'll see how this goes.

Otherwise this was a not-so-good weekend of feeling like shit. Still waiting for brane medicine to start working.

For the first time in ages I made myself leave the house without needing a prior arrangement. Instead we spent the day in Dublin city wandering.
The Point Village market was a bit dead so we didn't really hang around for long. It has a Pie Minister though and they do sell awesome pies, and got a sourdough loaf from another stall. Later we sat for a while in 3rd Floor Espresso on Abbey Street and enjoyed some awesome coffee. Easily up there with the Bald Barista for excellent espresso.