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A typical day.

• Wake up earlyish, around 8am.
• Put off getting out of bed for a while. Fall in and out of sleep and/or read internet on phone.
• Eventually get out of bed.
• Have a slice of toast for breakfast. Drink lots of water.
• Eventually leave for the office.
• Alternate between doing work and spacing out. Drink lots of water.
• Sometimes eat lunch. Other times get a yoghurt or something.
• Eventually get bored and leave for home.
• Do something for dinner. Slice of toast or soup. Drink lots of water.
• Try to read or watch TV. Usually end up with a music channel on while compulsively refreshing google reader or reddit or facebook or twitter or some/all of the above.
• Start feeling really tired around 9. Go to bed around 10.30 or 11. Stay awake for a while doing nothing. Drink lots of water. Eventually sleep but keep waking up.
• Repeat.

This is with drugs that are supposed to stop me feeling shit and useless. Instead all I feel is tired, restless, demotivated, distracted, twitchy, thirsty, and irritable. I crave food but I'm not hungry and little things like getting out of bed or leaving the house are a fuckton of effort. I could really do with the meds kicking in properly really soon, preferably before I leave the country on business in a couple of weeks would be useful.

Occasionally I get bursts of motivation where I can focus. Sometimes it lasts for a few hours but mostly for less than 1 hour.

I really don't have all that much control over what I give my full attention to, my brain just latches onto something and runs with it, whether that's reading reddit for hours or churning out some code. It's kind of like being in a trance.

On a more positive note, my lack of interest in food has caused me to lose some weight. Over the course of about a month I've dropped close to 5kg. I think my appetite's slowly coming back. It's hard to tell though.

meh.